[ Living In The Fairytale ]

Sunday, August 07, 2005

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Never thought I will experience such love (lust? ha) at first sight.. Been a long time since I felt my heart beat so fast and my face heating up because of a guy.. He's the SIS security at South, it was a really bad night at FOP, and I was already steaming from all the chaos and scoldings, I was looking forward to the end of the svc, and it was during the praise and worship after the preaching that I first saw him from the back.. The first thing that left an impression was really his build, he was tall and of the right build, and he did cut a nice figure in the suit.. He had nice hair, a little long, but boyish cut, and when he turned, truth was, I didn't really feel anything, coz I was still really pissed off by everything, and I was crying when he was there.. but somehow, I felt myself drawn towards him more as minutes went by.. and the next time he appeared, I was surprised to find my heart beating so fast that I couldn't look at him when he's in my direction.. When he came up to tell me that the South exit's open, for a moment, I was so caught up by how close he was standing to me, that I had to ask him to repeat what he said (actually also a little on purpose as I just want the moment to last a little longer, haha), and he was so cute, giving the thumbs up sign and the smile before he left, that was the moment that sealed it all.. unable to forget him.. tonight, I was really searching for him, and when I saw him at South from the floor area, though I couldn't see his face clearly, I was happy.. he stood out so significantly from the crowd.. it was just like what Pascale said, his character attracts.. I believe it's true, coz I'm not the only one who noticed him, though none were as crazy as me, haha.. I haven't seen an SIS security, or even our own church security with such a pleasant nature, while doing his duty and passing on instructions and msgs.. in this aspect, he felt more like an usher than a security, haha.. I hope to see him again, in the morning, and I am really going to try coming for the last night of FOP, coz that might be the last time I will see him.. I don't think we are going to have any more major events in SIS for the rest of the yr, even if there is, I might not see him too.. not asking for much, just wanna see him again, have a memory of him etched in my mind before Sun ends.. I cherish this feeling that has been stirred within me, like what I said, it has been yrs, and just when I had almost come to terms with the idea that to be with someone doesn't need to involve such feelings, starting out as friends, or developing feelings over time, he came along, and I am glad.. thanks, though I do not know you, not even your name, thanks for helping me recover memories of such strong longing to see someone.. a beautiful thing that is like a fairytale indeed, in this world when more often than not, reality does bite.. thanks.. ^^

In The Fairyland On|8/07/2005 02:53:00 AM|