For the umpteenth time, i wonder how i got myself into this mess.. so many reasons whirled in my mind.. love.. an inability to stand up for what i don't believe in.. self-centredness.. or just pure selfishness.. i hate myself when i'm trapped like this.. of course i have a choice, just that either way leads to total frustration and increasing depression, or others view of how i'm just being a bitch.. well.. i've made the decision, so i'll live with it..
Shirley
birthed forth into this garden of illusions
on 19 Sep 1981,
loving but not believing in the stars,
and nv want to be found again
[ My Adores ]
Flowers, butterflies, beautiful things.. and my dear ^^
[ My Hates ]
My cowardice
[ My Wishlist ]
Happiness
Assurance
Able to go into the fire and come out refined like gold
[ My Mood ]
[ My Past Wishes ]
*July 2004
*August 2004
*November 2004
*January 2005
*June 2005
*August 2005
*January 2006
*July 2007
*January 2009